This blog is fairly new. I haven’t decided it’s direction yet. It was intended to be a way to deal with and share the process of infertility. I was going to give the url to our friends and family, and let the blog do the talking, if you will. And I still will do that, but I find myself hesitating, and I can’t even really say why.
There are good days and bad days of infertility. Well, there aren’t really good days, but days where I am positive and ready to take it all on, and days where each option feels like a dead-end, where I feel cheated and jaded and sad. Today is not a positive one. Today I feel like I can’t have something everyone else can, and I feel broken and . . . and what? Pissed, I guess. And maybe that is why I have kept this to myself, because the last thing we need, the very. last. thing. is pity. We need hope. A big, huge heap of hope.