My thoughts were so loud I couldn’t hear my mouth

17 Dec

I’m sorry I’ve been gone for so long. The truth of the matter is that I don’t know what to say. I have, for maybe the first time in my life, been rendered speechless:

That, my friends, is exactly what it appears to be. It is a positive pregnancy test. I KNOW, RIGHT?

I’ve been so torn, so sick about what to do. It is so early to be telling people, but you all have been through this whole journey with me, and prayed for us, and loved us, and so you should know: my babymama is pregnant.

Seriously: OH. MY. GOD. What do I do now? Besides get a prescription for stomach acid inhibitors?


23 Responses to “My thoughts were so loud I couldn’t hear my mouth”

  1. Lelo 12/17/2009 at 10:20 pm #

    What are you going to name it? Will it have brothers or sisters?

    I thought I’d get the most irritating questions out of the way first.


    • lswan 12/18/2009 at 5:54 pm #

      You! Always thinking!

  2. Anne 12/17/2009 at 10:26 pm #

    Congratulations! OMG You must be so excited! Best wishes from Downunder.

    • lswan 12/18/2009 at 5:55 pm #

      Thank you SO MUCH! We are very excited.

  3. Lisa Lisa 12/18/2009 at 6:47 am #

    I am bursting. BURSTING!!!! And sometimes, also speechless. But here we are, on another road of this journey and I am grateful to be walking with the two of you, and in 2010, three of you.

    • lswan 12/18/2009 at 5:55 pm #

      Well, Lisa Lisa, thank you thank you.

  4. MeAndBaby 12/18/2009 at 8:49 am #

    Oh I wondered after reading one of your tweets! Yaaaaay!!!!!!!!!!!!

    • lswan 12/18/2009 at 5:56 pm #

      I know, I was bursting. Needed to talk it out. Thinking of you. xoxo

  5. Liz 12/18/2009 at 9:28 am #


    • lswan 12/18/2009 at 5:56 pm #

      I mean, !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. You know?

  6. girlvaughn 12/18/2009 at 9:58 am #

    I love that song.

  7. girlvaughn 12/18/2009 at 9:58 am #

    oh also…


    • lswan 12/18/2009 at 5:57 pm #

      It’s my favorite line from a song, ever.

  8. papa 12/18/2009 at 10:36 am #

    My grandcygnet. I will call her/him Ziggy until you name it. Your baby mama had cute little babies so I’m anxious to see the baby. A mix of Italian & French (possibly German near the French border) should make for a beautiful little girl or a handsome baby boy. I’m down for either and pretty excited for you guys. Love you both.

    • lswan 12/18/2009 at 5:57 pm #

      We love you too. So does Ziggy.

  9. Amber 12/18/2009 at 11:31 am #

    Wow – great news!!! Congrats to you all – such a great journey and blessing! I’ll be waiting for more great news/posts/pictures along the way. And don’t forget that I have a teenager (just blocks away) that you can borrow for your anxiety outbursts at any time! : )

    • lswan 12/18/2009 at 5:58 pm #

      Thanks, Amber! Makena doesn’t count as real teenager yet, does she? She is still so sweet. πŸ™‚

  10. Desiraie 12/18/2009 at 4:21 pm #

    I’m crying at my desk. YOU ARE GOING TO BE A MOM AND SOON!!!!!!!!!!!

    • lswan 12/18/2009 at 5:59 pm #

      Des, I know. Or I think I know. It’s hard to know anything right now. But I am thankful for you and your support. xoxo

  11. T 12/18/2009 at 10:01 pm #

    Glad to see the official post!!!!! Whoop Whoop. 10-4 SEAS …. got you’re expecting back! See you on the nighttime email line of roller coaster emotions.Loves my friend.

  12. Lanie 12/19/2009 at 2:45 pm #

    Hooray!!!!!!!! Thrilled for you. πŸ™‚

  13. Arielle 12/20/2009 at 3:56 pm #

    What an amazing gift! We couldn’t be happier for you guys! You can breathe now!


  14. Mommy Melee 01/01/2010 at 8:24 pm #



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